my job = doing everyone else's job and mine. i hate it. i cried all the way home. because i am fucking miserable.

glad your all's lives are going well though.

i asked my boss's boss today why we don't fire people. It went like this.
"i was just hoping you could explain our policy of not firing people" (COMMON KNOWLEDGE)
"what are you talking about? what policy?"
"well we all think there is a policy against firing people. Because no one ever gets fired"
"that is because things aren't documentated. " yes, he said documentated. MULTIPLE TIMES. and then he went on and on about how if we dont documentate then his bosses will make him hire that person back. And he asked who I was complaining about. I told him pretty much everyone, and it is exhausting having to do multiple people's jobs. I singled out Tierra. And I told him what happened yesterday.
First day of may = worst day of may (i hope) despite the fact that i did say rabbit.
Me, Geraldine, and Daniel (new guy who is a big smart ass, and so new he knows nothing) were opening. Rosie (EVIL EVIL LAZY ASS BITCH WHO SLEEPS ON THE JOB CONSTANTLY) was the manager, got mad at geraldine because she "had an attitude" and sent her home. At 4 am. We had an incredibly AWFUL day. Because Daniel isn't quite a real employee, and HOlly showed up so it was JUST ME AND HOLLY WORKING OUR ASSES off. And fucking Rosie. I HATE ROSIE. I SHOULDN'T BE WRITING THIS DOWN BUT I WANT TO CUT THAT BITCH'S FACE OFF. I SERIOUSLY HATE HER. Rosie didn't help us at all. She was busy sleeping on the clock.
I conveyed some of this to Tony. "oh"
"hang in there kiddo"
HANG IN THERE KIDDO?!
IS THIS WHAT THE FUCK I WENT TO COLLEGE FOR?!
HUH?

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? NO ONE EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVEN CALLS ME FOR A REAL LIFE MOTHERFUCKING JOB WHERE PEOPLE ASSUME I HAVE A COLLEGE DEGREE

Also today a customer saw one of our mice. BOUND to happen because we have had mice FOR MONTHS AND MONTHS AND MONTHS and have done NOTHING THAT I CAN SEE about it. fucking humiliating. So i was upset. Jonathon (manager) asked evie "what's wrong with rachel?" evie said "the same thing that's wrong with me and holly! We find the mice disgusting, wished someone besides us cared, and are freaking sick of working our butts off while everyone else is lazy. And it doesn't matter because no one ever gets fired"

But you guys have good lives. Kelly is engaged, Tiffy's loving her NYC producer life, Amanda's living it up in Europe, Patrice got into Jet (YAY!), so I will just sit here and miserably rot with my kitty cat alone.

I. HATE. MY. JOB.
and i can't get another one.
so glad i have years of great work history. so glad I did unpaid internships.

and I am so lonely.