GM HATE!

Hi. So I've been working at Borders and getting more and more used to things, except I really hate/fear the GM. She's a bitch. Maybe she's going through menopause or something, but she sure is really bitchy. So I needed to request off....a responsible thing to do right....and shes like you need to schedule it 2 weeks in advance. No one fucking told me that. So I though I wouldn't be able to get off to work at the Hawaii Primary Election. Fine whatever, so I was really too scared to ask off for my interview at the same time. And then she like makes it seem like I won't get that day off....what does she do....schedule me off. WTF. Make up your mind. So I fill out the form we need to fill out to get off...this is like 5 weeks ahead of time....and then she calls me into the office, "you know....you just started and you are asking off all the time, is this going to be happening every month? we rarely give time off..." well fuck you then. how about being more flexible. I fucking work every damn odd hour you fucking give me (the hours aren't that odd, but still...). So I was like this is a really rare circumstance...I said it was a family weekend thing verses saying that I was going to another interview...but if she doesn't fucking give me off I'm going to quite that job.

This is the first time that someones words pierce my heart. Everything that she says to me is usually very negative (her tone of voice is always very harsh/negative/mean sounding). This has been really bothering me a lot ever since I started working there. I've never been so affected by someones words. They really stick with me and I feel really down all the time. She hasn't said anything about the things I do good or anything. I'm pretty sure I'm doing some stuff that is good....
I wonder if I'm being over-sensitive about this.

Anyway, hope you all are doing well.

conforming

Here's a post for yall. Tips SUCKED today, circa $8.00. and our stupid system kept going down, it was beyond obnoxiuos. and our GM came in yesterday so our manager decided to be totally OCD about all the stupid rules no one follows. Not coolio. I hafta tutor in algebra tonight, not looking forward to it but I do like money.
Life after graduation blows (sorry Kelly, I know you don't like it when people are unhappy). Talking with Cait keeps me from killing myself. This girl got this job I should've gotten and sucks at it. But she is nice.
I'm super lonely and my cat's my best friend.
I canvassed for Shane Gibson (state rep, 72nd district) yesterday in my own neighborhood. That was kind of funny. And Saturday I was canvassing for OFA and got stuck talking to this racist crazy for 43 minutes. It was incredibly entertaining. He had ideas of how to pay for the new bridge (which we've talked about for literally 30 years), and INSISTED i write them down to remember to tell Baron Hill. Teehee. He also pointed out where all the Mexicans live in his neighborhood, but he "doesn't want to feel prejudiced". I mean... you might want to feel it, but you are it Mr. racistpants. I put notes in votebuilder saying that he was crazy. But after all that, he's still gonna vote for Baron and Ellsworth! I'm pretty much a winning canvasser, lol.
k there's your life update. Hope it made yall happy

amy's back!

Tiffypoo, this blog is so cool! I decided to resurrect Amy's picture on some sort of blog in memory of all of our ridiculous posts on Spiegs's blog. So here she is, in all of her crack whore glory.

I spent the summer at Blue Lake, so of course it was a good summer. It was really hard though because I was away from Patrick. Today is our 11 month anniversary so I'm pretty excited that in one month we'll have been together for a year. Weird, right? He came up and visited me at Blue Lake a lot, which was awesome cause we stayed at this really cute bed and breakfast and the couple that owned it was really nice. They are like in their 70s but they had just gotten back from this like 300 mile hike between France and Spain--cray cray. But it was fun.

I was done with camp this past Monday and I drove the 6 hours it took to get to DePauw to visit Patrick. I guess I win the prize for being the first one of us to visit again--even before classes had started, which I think is pretty sad. It was super anticlimactic because I went to the music building with Patrick and instead of most people being like, "Hey Kelly! How are you?" All excited to see me, most people were like, "Oh what are you doing here? Didn't you graduate?" Then I had to explain to everyone why I was there and it was stupid. Because I was just thinking the whole time...where the hell were all of you people when I was dating Patrick all year last year? Duh...why do you think I'm here..." but anyway. I talked to Mr. Smith and Spiegs and Carla Edwards and Mr. Rizner and Maddy Balensuela. They were all really nice though so that was cool. I stayed in Fiji and Dil is Patrick's roomie so of course he was just drinking all the time. I'm kinda over that. But anyway, going there made me really miss all of you guys. And looking at all the little freshman who were trying to make themselves look perfect and fratty and shit made me realize how happy I was to not be there again this year, even though I really miss you guys a lot.

I'm so happy that we have this blog because it's nice to be able to see what all of you guys are doing. Patrice, I love that video of you dancing. It's so cool that you worked at camp and loved it. Now you know how I feel about Blue Lake.

I'm watching wedding shows all day long because I'm home alone until I move to Cincinnati on Sep. 11. This crazy girl from Texas right now is convinced that she's going to wear cowboy boots with her wedding dress...ew. She also wants to only have beer to drink at her wedding. She was tasting wine and she was like "this is so gross!" Hahaha. Anyway, I love you guys and miss you all. More to come later.

Back to Society

Hi,

I've been back in Hawaii for a week. Not really doing much of anything. I went to the beach and hung out with a few friends. I really miss camp (Mori no Ike, this translates to lake in the forest). I didn't think I would come to like that camp as much as I did. It kind of felt like a different home there. I'll probably want to go back to work there next summer if I don't have a real job.

So, right now it kind of sucks too. I have no job, I can't drive, and I have very little money.
I didn't play violin for 2 months and when I finally picked up my violin again, it feels like my fingers are fat and uncoordinated. I have no motivation to practice either. Feels like my interest in music has totally dropped to zero again. I think I want to put my efforts into Japanese. I think I want to get teaching certified so I can teach Japanese. But I also need my proficiency to get a little better too.

As of right now, I am waiting to hear back from Walmart, Target, Kama'aina Care (child care), Genki Sushi (sushi restaurant), CVS, and a teaching program in Japan. I will be applying to many more jobs here in Hawaii and in Japan.

For the time being, here is a funny video of me and my other coworkers dancing. Those kids were creepers and took this video.
P.S. Kelly will probably be the only one who understands this, Ryo is guy in the black t-shirt and shorts, wearing the hat and glasses.

long sigh

This summer kind of sucks. And when I say "kind of" I really mean it's pretty much the worst summer I've ever had. Rach knows where I'm coming from....rejection letters, bad economy, no air-conditioning in my car, and a stupid pt job that does not appreciate me among other things.

I've applied to a few more internships (even though I told myself I would not do anymore) at NPR and WNYC. If I'm lucky enough to get one they will start next month, but I haven't heard back from either yet and I'm starting to get worried. I think I will go crazy if I am not out of Indiana by this time next month.

I had to give back my viola today...to my old private lesson teacher. I probably won't have the money to buy my own for a few years.

Not having that safety net of going back to school in the fall really sucks.  

good things that have/will happened:
10k races
family reunion in Florida
Jersey Shore is back
Colts pre-season
WGRE is the #1 college radio station in the nation

That was depressing. Here's a funny vid: